The light and the shadow both guide us perfectly, each in its own way, in its own time. Often at the right time. You see, when you pray from your deep longing to know that real freedom you intuit from that intact part of your soul, you can be cast deeply into the exact places where you are not free. The deepest freedom is found passing through the portals you most want to hide from. These are the places you are leaning into, the edges where the truths are revealed to your heart. The ones with the answers to the answers.
This is how the obstacle becomes the path. That which you are trying to control, suppress, ignore, force like ducks in a row...it is controlling you until you learn to open to it, to flow like water and love that place it reflects with misery inside of you. That place, whatever that place is where you aren't free. That obstacle, that's the path. That's where you sit and lay flowers. The place where the light and the shadow will visit you with guidance in equal measure. Both tombstone and birthday celebration, teaching you how to dance the dance, to know this ephemeral place you try to grasp by holding on to things.