The beliefs we develop about ourselves and life around us arise from our earliest childhood experiences. Our wounding, which we are taught to deny is there because our culture thrives on denial.
Unprocessed pain, unmet and unfelt grief crystallizes into "negative" belief patterns and shame. It contributes to and is easily and steadily fed by our emotionally dysfunctional culture. A culture that is incredibly illiterate in one of the most healing and important aspects of the human experience.
Grief is potent healing energy.
Without it, the unmet, unfelt wounding within us reaches out into the world to find soothing, to find "mother" in order to experience some kind of inner resolution that will lead to peace, safety and goodness; to feel connected to the feminine face of God.
Unprocessed wounds are running the world. They are what has us picking the same relationships over and over again, doubting ourselves, not trusting life, running from one addiction to another, looking for the "one" or hiding from ourselves.
What we see as co-dependence, seeking our wholeness in the external world, is at the root, a symptom of spiritual and emotional disconnection from love itself, also known as trauma.
It is the mother wound playing itself out so that we can finally come to know ourselves.
Trying to change our "beliefs' is like putting our wounded inner one in a corner for a time out and expecting them to only emerge when they are ready to behave properly.
Our separation from the Mother, from nature herself, has us living in our minds, minds trained to be oppressive parents hell bent on painting anything into a radiant, positive thing, including childhood hell.
We live in a time that diminishes our feeling capacity, which is our direct connection to the feminine aspect of the divine.
We are here to feel.
We are here to fine tune ourselves through energy that moves through the body as feelings. Old wounds is stuck energy that locks up our life force and becomes the energy the mind responds to that keeps us in a spiral of negative mother or death mother energy. It keeps us in a constant conflict with life and ourselves and I don't think that being human is truly meant to be this hard. Yet, the world as it is constructed is making it hard for the soul to feel safe, for us to feel good about what makes us human.
Healing co-dependency is looking to the spaces where unmet, unheld grief has a story to tell. Where love wants to crack open the heart and release the grip of the past so that the psyche is free, clear and able to know it's own love and discern what love is meant for him/her.
Grief is love.
We do not grieve things we do not love.
It is a profound act of love to turn back, to look down the path of the inner one who experienced separation at such a young age and to acknowledge all that was survived. To acknowledge the truth to the one inside that longs to be seen, heard, known and held. To honor the truth of the past. To offer love to that one that is seeking it everywhere. To turn the mind towards the heart and offer a space not of fixing and attacking, but one of empathy, compassion, love, understanding and space to grieve.
Grief, like all things, is impermanent. We fear it will last forever, but it does not. It comes and goes as life comes and goes. The pain that gets lodged because of our fear of opening to grief does become permanent and that, that is the root that needs to be tended too. To tend to the roots is to let the love flow again, to let the love for yourself open your heart back to yourself. To be the one that says the buck stops here with the pain running the show and continuing the pattern of looking for someone to be the ONE we need to be for ourselves.
It's a learning curve for sure. But, grief is not as scary as we think. We don't need to put a positive spin on it. It is beautiful as it is. As you are. Holy in its burning and tears, the broken openness that softens our hearts to ourselves and life, gives us another opportunity to appreciate what we have and allows the channel of our own aliveness to set us free.
We are taught to fear the very things that will set us free.
Codependence is our collective unconscious search for divine union.
We are the only ones that can turn to that one seeking and find that is who we have been seeking all along.
8/18/2020 10:09:08 am
This is my first visit to Your website. I am sorry for that; for I found You are not blogging anymore. This is a wonderful heart felt piece and it hit home, for me anyway. I hope You and Your family are well and safe through the madness of this pandemic. The Your Divine Mother has made herself known to You. She Dwells inside of You and Works through You everyday . You are the Temple . Remember to Breath , Ground , and Find Center often . Meditate and find Peace . Love Yourself as much as You can so that You can go on to Love Others . Mind Like Water , Sister , Flow ~~~
7/14/2022 04:18:55 am
Thanks for this blogg post
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