I envision a world where we feel comfortable in our own skins and are happy about being human. A world where everyone loves and values themselves as a part of the whole, where self-loathing is an oddity rather than the usual, and the soul's truth is valued as a gift from the divine in service of our highest good.
I’m the first in my family born in the U.S. I adopted the role of translating culture and language for my parents at a very young age, which really honed in my skills of perception and sensitivity. I lived in the in-between, never quite American, never quite Hungarian, never quite here or there.
I had a rich inner life, moving between worlds, deeply feeling and knowing things others don't seem to notice. I have always had a deep connection to spirit.
I talked to the moon like she was God. Trees were my friends. There was so much to notice in the in-between spaces, very precious moments.
It was magic.
I learned very early on that most people are afraid of emotions and the truth, so I kept it to myself while not understanding why, because I saw the truth as a communication from the divine and that acknowledging the truth would bring everyone more happiness at the end of the day.
I believe that shining love on the truth of your soul's story liberates the sacred within to feel at home in your own skin.
Because I kept lot of truths and my own inner knowing wrapped up tightly inside of myself, over time I also hid from my own truths. I did my best to be an all around “good” girl.
I did all the things.
I earned my doctorate in Clinical psychology after ten years of intense clinical training and research. This was after I earned my Master’s degree…always a student and seeker.
I sought refuge studying with a Buddhist teacher for 11 years, practicing and learning to teach meditation and yoga. I traveled to India and presented papers while volunteering at my friend’s orphanage, learning yoga in Rishikesh. I visited my family in Hungary, studied earth based religions for over 20 years, mentored with shamans and energy healers, read hundreds of self-help books and took a million personal development seminars. I became a “good” spiritual student and a “great” therapist.
I lived a double life, splitting parts of me.
Perfectionism became my jam.
I swallowed a lot of my feelings and ignored my intuition, which is what most “good” girls do. I started chasing it all down with lots of alcohol, bad relationships and a myriad of self-destructive habits.
I didn’t like myself. I felt empty.
Something had to give, I couldn’t do it anymore and finding my way to my version of rock bottom offered me the way out and the light I needed to initiate myself back to wholeness.
I got sober.
I listened deeply.
I left all the old lives behind in order to discover the one where I didn't have to hide or pretend anymore. I combined everything I had learned and gathered up all the gems from the dark, in-between spaces I tried to hide in.
It is my greatest honor to now bring these gifts to you, to facilitate a healing adventure and serve as your guide, mentor and midwife on your journey back to yourself.
Sacred Alchemy is a spiritual art and healing path that uses everything on your path to bring you back to yourself.
It is time to retrieve your soul and transform everything that keeps you from feeling comfortable in your own skin, from being fully you and living the life that you are meant to live.
It is your birthright.
Would you like to join me?