Depression Resists Aliveness

The change of seasons brings up a lot of heaviness, the last of the Winter energies asking to be metabolized and released. This can feel like fatigue, exhaustion. It can feel like deep sadness. It can feel like depression. Depression, however, is not the same as feeling sadness, grief or tired unless you resist your experience.

Emotions are life force energy manifesting as a current of information to guide you in making decisions, in navigating life, as well as into a more conscious relationship with yourself and with Spirit. Emotions serve a lot of different functions, many of them are shut down in the same way life force energy is generally shut down, with several few acceptable expressions of it. As a consequence, many of us have come to believe that our emotional life is bad, that it isn't safe to have emotions (or be ourselves) or we fear our emotions because we do not know what to do with them.

What can happen is a shut down, which manifests as depression. All these emotions go inward because we don't know what to do with them. We turn in on ourselves. This is the birth of self-criticism, shame and self-loathing. Especially if we weren't held, seen or supported to understand our own inner experience.

Emotions are relational, they happen in response to our relationship with life. Healing relationships and cultivating a healing relationship with Spirit can be a relieving balm in our current emotionally neglectful (and abusive) society. One of the most potent ways to use ancient spiritual and soul technologies is to learn how to harness the wisdom of your emotional body to tap into the wisdom of your emotions, metabolize your emotions and experience the liberating quality of this connection with life force energy.

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Your body is here having this life experience. Your body contains innate wisdom, it is the earth and ground of your soul. You are innately good and alive in all the senses. Your body communicates through the language of energy, emotions and symbols. This is the walking, breathing essential divinely mysterious and richly magical nature of being human and embodying this in-between thing we call life.

When we are depressed, our system is full and we begin to resist life, to resist our own life force energy. It's a time to tend to the nervous system, connect with your heart, journal and feel curious about what in life you are resisting. Seek support for emotions that may feel scary or too overwhelming to feel on your own. Create a space to grieve, to acknowledge the past, what you want to let go of or the old parts of you longing for acknowledgement. Move your body. Listen to your body if you know how. Go out to nature and lay on the earth. Lean on a tree. You are supported. Start to let life in little by little. Breath by breath.