What is worthiness? Why this word worth? What is anything worth? Where does the value that defines worth come from? Who decides this?
Worthiness is such a pain point. We all want to have this experience of worthiness, to live into the world acting, breathing, thinking and doing like people who have worth.
But, this word.
We live in a shame culture. A trauma culture. A money culture. These things are all tied in with our human need for love. Its a dangerous recipe that keeps us tied into a culture that profits off of our suffering.
We are hard pressed to find anyone untouched by the tendrils of trauma in the tenderness and fragility of what it is to be a human being. In this harsh culture, it's not okay to be human.
Our "worth" is a concocted notion that has nothing to do with love. When we live in a culture that ties so much importance to money, even the language we use to think of ourselves becomes tied to value, money. To be worthy is to charge a certain amount of money, to live at a certain level that communicates your worth, etc.
Except many people who have a high "worth" can still feel terribly empty inside, feeling even more shame and wondering what they did wrong since they did all the "things". You can pay more money believing because someone is charging a lot, it must be worth it when you are really contributing to their bank of narcissistic supply.
We are in dangerous territory with this worth game. And, everyone in the meantime is struggling with shame.
Shame, the soul wound, an original broken heart. Shame and love have nothing to do with worthiness, with your value as a human being. Shame points towards an inner pain that can be healed, the can usher you in a direction of what you loving you will look and feel like and be like for YOU as you dance this life of you. No one else can show you what that will be.
I for one would love to remove the whole idea of "value" out the equation. What about nobility? Goodness? Divinity? Love? What if in our inherent humanity, we are simply these beautiful noble creatures. Not trying to create God in our own image, but sweet animals that source is trying to know itself through? Buddhist speak of inherent goodness. That we are all born with basic goodness as our nature.
What about instead of worrying so much about what we are worth and the ways our culture proclaims we should know our worth on it's terms, that we reconnect with our basic nature of goodness and let our own basic goodness lead the way? We must heal the way we have internalized a consumer culture in order to stop consuming ourselves and feeding our pain, finding a way to feel that inner sense of freedom and live in a life where we feel GOOD about ourselves....reconnected to love, our basic nature.